Finally i can stop mugging on my homeworks and tests le luhs! I've been trying so hard to study cause im in a sort of emo (thinking a lot of things) and got match these few day. Haiz, bo bian still have to tahan. A lot of things happen recently (good and bad things). :'( So morose luhs! No more contact lens for me le. Maybe buying color contact. ^^ But no $_$. I AM LATE TODAY! But didnt serve SIP! ;D hahas.

I dont quite know how to say how im feeling. A mixture of happy, sad, confused, puzzeled, excited, moodless....... Why am i feeling this way? Its so difficult for me go on like that. I have been trying so hard to smile but i just cant do it. Maybe loving me is your biggest mistake baa. I made so many peeps sad esp you. I know im bad, a failure. I fail to be a good gf. Just like what wanshing said to me during recess while im trying so hard to memorise the geog notes on Monday, Melissa, why you not concentrating ar? I was stunned and doing some reflection. Everyone managed to memorise everything except me. WHY!? haiz. I know you wont look back at me again cause ... Suan le.Wo zhi neng zhan zai yi ge jiao luo tou tou de zhu yi ni. Let me be emo for this week ba.Hopefully, i can get things sorted out. You mei you ren zhi dao wo de xin qing?Wo de xin zhen de hen tong hen tong. Wo zhen de bu zhi dao yao zhe yang cai hao. Wo zhi dao wo bu yin gai ku le ke shi wo zhen de zhen de heng shang xin.Ying wei wo men bu gou tan bai he ji ben de xin ren tou mei you. Ni ke yi bu ke yi zhe yang dui wo le ma.Wo zhen de zhen de hen lei le mei tian dui yao jia zhuang hen kai xin. Wo zhen de shou bu liao le. *sobsob* :'(

{我想我还是会站在某一个街角 不让你看到 只因为我不想打扰 只因为怕你解释不了. 我想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你 我们之间的问题是我不相信你 敏感又多心怕你变了心 因为爱你害怕失去你 }