What did i do wrong again? haiz. If no, why are you treating like THIS? If you enjoy treating me like this and it makes you feel happier, urms, maybe i dont mind? At least you are happy. No one really know how i feel. Do i deserve to be like that? I was hoping that every tomorrow doesnt come cause i want to be hurt again and i dont know what will happen next. There a paradox between living and dying. Im afraid to live than die. I saw that but i pretend i didnt see that. You really dont know how much your words mean to me. Sorries dont work. Why did my tears roll down my eyes uncontrollably? I dont want to have swollen eyes and block nose the next day. I bet i will not tell anyone why im EMO. What i said ytd to you (the reason) just make up o.o1% why im sad. I wont tell you why i feel sad cause i dont want to get back the same reply back ,Oic. Im not a toy lae.I also got feelings not just someone. I know you do want to hurt someone but do you think you can treat me like that, HELLO? Anyway, thanks for making me realising sth. I really dont know who should i talk to. Im lost. No one will resue me from this situation. Im already broken into pieces in case you dont know. haiz. I just need more tissues, seriously. When you say're busy ,all that says to me is im not worth your time. Wo de xin zhen de hen tong hen tong.Tong dao wo mei you gan jue le. haiz. Rang wo shang xin xia qu ba. Ru guo ni kan dao wo gen bie de nan hai zi zai yi qi, ni you se men gan jue ne? Na huan lai shi wo kan dao ni gen bie de nu hen zi zai yi qi, nan dao wo bu shang xing ma?

{Do you want me to cry in front of you?}